Final project

This is the outcome of my final project. As I expected, the process did not go as planned and the original idea I had for the outcome is a little different than what I initially envisioned. I wanted this project to be much different than a typical image of myself. For this reason, I decided to get personal and let everyone in on something that I suffer from, which is a counting compulsion, a form of OCD. This painting represents so many parts of what goes on inside of my head although no one will recognize this fact until I explain it. I like the fact that it does not outwardly express my OCD because that can also represent how OCD is a mental thing, it does not always show itself physically. To create this portrait, with the help of my girlfriend, I created lines horizontally and vertically to create boxes that were 8x8 (even number). It was also important for me to not have an odd number of boxes going across or down the canvas, so there are six at the top, and four going down the canvas. I then, imperfectly, traced these lines with black paint to represent how I am imperfect, there is no such thing as perfection. I painted in the boxes with primary colors, these are also in a pattern (red, blue, then yellow). Three boxes are different, for this I used my original technique of using a frosting spatula to paint abstract images, this represents what is important to me while challenging my idea of evenness since I only did it for three boxes. The "3D" boxes that I drew inside of the boxes were done with a metallic, gold, paint pen; These boxes are important to me because I have been drawing them on everything for as long as I can remember. When I was very young, my mother taught me how to draw these boxes and I never stopped. My final project differs from my midterm because my midterm was something I take seriously and I am passionate about, which is feminism and equality whereas my final project has more to do with me personally.